Randomly Things About You

Some of you might be heard about this guy few years ago. I was dating with him in early 2008. I was stupid and fun and careless about anything, and I was madly in love with him. I did lots of dumb things, broke up with him is also one of the dumb thing I ever did. So, okay, I always give a nickname for every single person that I wrote here. Umm... Wait, I'm trying to give him a silly nickname but the last time I tweeted about him I called him as an "Angel", it's kinda difficult to give him a silly name cause I used to call him "ndud" or "jelek" which means fatty or ugly lol. He's not fatty nor ugly actually... He's more like you know "my type". Gosh! Let me call him Ndud, it's described him enough for me.

Well, I called him an Angel once because for the past like five or maybe six years, whenever I need someone to talk, I mean like talk about serious and secret things, he apparently showed in any way like text, phone calls, or showed up in front of me and simply asked "hey, are you okay?" and it's just... Weird. You know like he knows. And, he's the man who I can be weird, silly, and fun with. He's also the only person who I can't stand not to show up what's really happened on me. I could cry in front of him and tell exactly what I feel without any worries that he'll ignore me or let my self down. I couldn't do that with any other man. Maybe it's because I've been known him for a quite long time and I always feels comfortable with him...

Right now, Ndud is a mature version of Ndud in the five years ago. Even we was growing apart, thank God, he grows as a man in my dream. Okay I know it's sounds like a drama but hey, I never thought he could be exactly like the one in my dream! Short story, I could be a great producer one day anyway (omg I cut my own story! Isn't a sign that I became a lazy writer?)

Well, thank God we met again. We both changed. He seems better now and he thinks the same about me. After short precious meeting, we decided to date. Again. And this one is a LDR. Huff. Harder isn't?

Do you know what makes it different? Let me tell you this secret.

I'm a dreamer, I spend time before sleep wondering beautiful things that might be happens in life. I'm also love daydreaming whenever I get tired or having a free time. I usually imagine stuffs like newest gadget, city cars, long holidays, shopping, or stupid things like what it feels to live in a game. I imagined what it feels to be a main character in a harvest moon, GTA (ouch this one is more like myself driving in a real world), or in any dramas. I never imagined stuff like marriage before because I always think I'm 14 not 24 LOL!! And for the first time in my life, I imagined what it feels like to have him as my partner or husband and started living together as a couple, I imagined stuffs like make a breakfast for him, give him massage after a hard day at work, you know imagined little things that we could do together like solving our problems together. And the weirdest is I'm also imagined how it feels like to have a baby from him! I think I'm going mad or something.

Things are pretty hard when it comes to a LDR with so many limitations, especially when we have to describe things that should be shown. He asked me to tell him a nice things about us and I didn't say any. Whenever he asked me what makes me love him, I didn't answer it. It just... I didn't mean to leave it blank. I just don't know the answer. I have no idea why I'm in love with him, I just know that he's the only person I want so bad right now like I really want to hug him really tight and won't let him go again... Ever.

So, Ndud, if you read this (I bet you're not going to do it in a short amount of time since you busy with your work, your side jobs, and exams AND you're too tired and now SICK), I want you to know that I'm in love with you but just don't ask me why cause being in love with you is the hardest thing to describe. I always said that I don't like to tell you why I like you cause sometimes even if we had a fight, you're the one who can make me feel needed. And Ndud, I don't wanna lose you anymore, it's hurt to grow apart from you...

I know I'm asking you too much but these LDR things is killing me! I'm dying to meet you again :( We both suffering from this LDR lol but again, baby please be patient with me... We promised to take any risks and try our best to do this. I know we can get through this and be together one day. I believe in us and YOU...

Xxxxxoxxxoxo
-db-

Isn't It Cute? :D

someone send me this thru BBM yesterday. it's actually simple and cute since he wanted to say the L word by pictures that he made it by himself. i like it. what do you think?

-db-

I Think I'm Pregnant!

I think I'm pregnant
I feel fat and heavy
And I hate my body

I think I'm pregnant
I eat chocolate and strawberries
I am sorry, I can't help it

And all day I feel nauseous
It's not pretty to see
Of course, I'm getting bigger and bigger

How, can I abort
All my fat, fat belly?
Tell me, how can I abort
All my fat, fat belly?

I think I'm pregnant
Though I haven't had sex
With nobody but my hands
Since the past three months

I think I'm pregnant
Though I take my pills
Every day since I was 13

And I've had a test
And it tells me I'm not
And my friends look at me
And all ask, "SoKo, what's happening?"

"You're getting bigger and bigger
You're getting bigger and bigger
You're getting bigger and bigger"

How can I abort
All my fat, fat belly?
Tell me, how can I abort
All my fat, fat belly?

I think I'm pregnant
I am breeding something
But I don't really know what it is

I think I'm pregnant

But today I discovered
That it's not a baby
That I am expecting
Its just a big fart
Stuck in my belly

And I might give birth
To a little piece of fat

And you will look like
Look like
Butter

Welcome, Mr. Butter

-soko-

Back To December by Taylor Swift

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change

Aku Sayang Sekali Doraemon

Banyak yang gak tau kalo aku suka doraemon. Gini-gini aku fans beratnya. Secret admirer-nya. Aku tahu aku takut sama kucing. Aku benci bulu kucing. Aku sebel sama matanya kucing. Kecuali doraemon.
Memang aku nggak koleksi pernak-perniknya sampai gila gitu… percaya nggak, aku pernah dapet masalah dan aku sedih banget nggak bisa ngatasin masalahku. Ehh, dari mulutku keluar kata-kata, “coba doraemon disini…” bodoh banget yah! Hihihihih!
Doraemon itu nggak hebat. Dia Cuma robot canggih aja. Bahkan, dekisugi yang paling pinter dikelas 5 aja, dari aku kecil sampai aku kuliah ini, dia masih juga kelas 5!
Doraemon itu sebenernya ngajarin kita, sesulit apapun masalah kita, kita harus berusaha menyelesaikannya. Tidak memiliki apa-apa bukan hal yang memalukan, tapi akan menjadi sangat memalukan jika kita tidak ingin merubah keadaan itu…
Saya, dida, beserta doraemon dan teman-teman yang lain mengucapkan : “mari bersama-sama merubah diri kearah yang lebih baik! Ganbate!” =b
[gak jelas nihh..]

Wortel

kalo kita mau sehat, harus banyak makan sayur dan buah juga selain makan daging-dagingan. sayur itu enak loh! salah satu favoritku adalah wortel. sayur oranye yg panjang itu.. :)

ternyata, gak semua orang suka sayur, banyak diantara mereka jijik liat akuu makan sayur.. padahal wortel kan bagus buat mata.. ya kan? ya kan? ya kan? :(
kata temen-temen, hobbyku makan wortel itu aneh bgt.. padahal aku gak ngelakuin hal aneh, cuma kupas wortel and makan gitu aja.. apa yg aneh? iya kalo gak dikupas baru keliatan aneh.. khan kayak kelinci..
teman-teman, makan wortel yang banyak yah! bagus loh buat kesehatan mata kalian.. [contohlah aku] hahahha !
have a great day, everyone! :D

Sebentar, Mom!

Judul Buku : Life On The Refrigerator Door (Kehidupan di Pintu Kulkas)
Penulis : Alice Kuipers
Penerbit : Gramedia Pustaka Utama


Buku ini seakan melambaikan tangan waktu pertama kali aku lihat. Ya, dari judulnya saja, aku belum bisa menebak kehidupan macam apa yang akan dibahas. Sempat terlintas buku ini membahas tentang kuman disekitar kulkas. Hihihi...
Ternyata, sinopsis dibelakangnya membeberkan salah satu kisah kehidupan modern yang serba sibuk. Buku yang berkisah tentang ibu dan anak tunggalnya yang bernama Claire. Ayah yang sudah bercerai namun tetap memiliki hubungan baik, ibu yang sibuk dengan pekerjaannya dan anak gadis dengan segudang aktivitas. Buku setebal 240 halaman ini memang berkisah tentang remaja (tetep...)
Berbeda dengan bacaan remaja lainnya, buku bernuansa ceria ini tidak mengekspos dunia remaja yang pacaran putus-bertengkar-nyambung gitu. Buku ini cocok banget buat kita-kita yang sayang banget sama mama. Dan cocok buat kamu-kamu yang benci banget sama mama. (heheheh) Buku ini ngingetin kita, seburuk-buruknya mama dan sesedikit-sedikitnya waktu yang kita punya bersamanya, mama terus mendukung. Sebenarnya, mama lah yang paling mengenal kita lebih dari siapapun.
Buku ini juga menggambarkan kehidupan ‘sederhana’ orang luar yang pekerja keras. Cari duit. Duit. Duit. Juga kehidupan seorang ibu yang berani dan kuat menghadapi masalah pribadi dan sekelilingnya. Buku ini ngajarin kita untuk bisa menerima hidup, betapa pun itu sulit kita terima. Realistis banget!
I do love this book! :D
Meskipun kesannya mendalam, buku ini juga sedikit aneh bin nyeleneh. Isinya yah sebatas catatan di pintu kulkas yang diurut sesuai waktu. Dan pastinya nggak ada tanggal tetap atau jam atau bahkan hari. Membaca buku ini membuat kita menjadi ‘kulkas’ yang memandang kehidupan orang lain yang diperlihatkan pada kita melalui kertas-kertas yang ditempel dengan magnet.

“Tak ada buku berisi peraturan-peraturan yang memberitahuku bagaimana caranya melakoni hidupku atau mengatasi semua ini. Kalau saja buku seperti itu ada.” (2008 : hal 126)

Berbagi yang Menyenangkan

Judul Buku : The Conch Bearer (Keong Ajaib)
Penulis : Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni
Penerbit : Gramedia Pustaka Utama





Saat pertama kali ketemu sama buku ini (ceilaa... ketemu? Ngedate kalii...), jujur aja aku memang tertarik karena covernya yang lucu. Bernuansa coklat, kesannya kalem banget gitu deh... ternyata! Buku yang kaya imajinasi ini bercerita tentang petualangan seorang anak laki-laki berumur dua belas tahun bernama Anand. Kesan kalem langsung ambles dengan deskripksi detail didalamnya, seakan-akan kita ikut bersama Anand mengikuti petualangannya. Kota di India yang kesannya gak jauh beda sama daerah di pinggiran Surabaya, hiruk pikuknya, suasana yang dibangun, keadaan dataran-dataran yang dilalui. Rasanya, aku bisa menggambarkan kisah ini di kepalaku.
Lucunya, buku ini menjadikan keong sebagai ‘objek’, yang kita anggap bukan apa-apa ternyata adalah hal yang hebat! Ini yang bikin kita nggak boleh ngeremehin sesuatu yang kayaknya nggak penting.
Sedikitnya, kita bisa mengambil dan belajar gambaran kehidupan orang India yang keras, sebutan-sebutan, dan makanan khas mereka. Buku ini mengajarkan kita buat ikhlas dan rela. Cocok banget dijadiin hadiah buat adik atau sepupu kita yang masih pada bau kencur. Sebelum kena yang aneh-aneh, mari kita cekoki dengan bacaan bermutu semacam ini... (hahahha!)
Mengikuti perjalanan Anand sepanjang 272 halaman ini memang tentang seputar anak-anak. Lengkap dengan kehidupan yang penuh tantangan. Mungkin karena tembakannya untuk anak-anak SD, jadi, ya, main plotnya tidak terlalu berat. sayangnya, goal di cerita ini nggak kena di hati. Kesannya dapet pertolongan Tuhan langsung gitu. Hehehe... atau mungkin memang dibuat begitu karena ada sequel-nya? :D

“Tidak diingat orang lagi ~ bukankah itu semacam kematian?” (2004 : hal 258)

Lewat Gambar, Bukan Kata-Kata

Judul Buku : Cara Pinter Bikin Film Dokumenter
Penulis : Fajar Nugroho
Penerbit : Indonesia Cerdas



Film Dokumenter. Ya, beberapa tahun terakhir ini aktivitas membuat dan menonton film dokumenter menjadi semakin ‘hidup’. Rasa ketertarikan itu pun muncul ketika melihat buku ini terpajang disalah satu toko buku langgananku.
Film dokumenter yang orang awan tahu mungkin hanya seputar flora dan fauna. Padahal, ada banyak hal yang bisa dijadikan bahan untuk membuat film dokumenter, lho!
Buku ini memperlihatkan step by step pembuatan film dokumenter dengan detail. Mulai dari ide hingga larangan dan hal yang nggak boleh kita lewatkan dalam membuat film dokumenter. Yah, jadi, bikin film dokumenter itu ada hukumnya juga... (ceilaa... mentang-mentang penulisnya kuliah hukum... hehehhe)
Buku setebal 192 halaman ini enak banget dibaca kapanpun. Gaya bahasanya yang ringan dan anak muda banget jadi bikin kita (kawula muda) gampang nangkep maksud dari si penulis. Fajar Nugroho sendiri udah membuktikan buku ini melalui kesuksesannya menjadi filmaker, jadi bikin kita nggak ragu untuk mengikuti jejaknya.
Goal buku ini memang untuk membuat kita tertarik membuat film dokumenter dan terjun kedalamnya. Tapi, mungkin penulisnya agak narsis kalii yah... hehehe... jadi buku ini bisa dibilang “Fajar banget”.

“Percayalah, segala kesusahan yang kamu alami akan ada reward-nya di kemudian hari. Bagaikan menemukan sebuah dunia baru.” (2007 : hal 131)